I've always felt as though I did not belong where I was. Not even much of it had to do with where I was physically, but more so my mental and emotional location. In coming to college, I've finally found a place where I belong.
I feel like that's a problem when teenagers are growing up. The unknown between finding friends and becoming acclimated with life creates a sort of in-between for an individual. I was there for a long time. Many of the people I was close with did not understand this mindset.
It was no one's fault, only an internal problem I had to overcome myself. For a while, it was easy for me to suppress those emotions, and now, I can finally say that all of those feelings have dissipated and I feel at peace, at ease with my self, and content with where I am at life.
Sure, it may have taken me a little bit longer than most, but at least I'm here. At first, I didn't think I was really accomplishing much of anything, but now, I feel like everything I'm doing is meaningful and important to the path that my life is taking.
It's a seriously awesome feeling!
Everyone who has helped me along the way and is in my life now has truly helped me get here. I would not be who I am today without those people.
Just in case anyone was wondering, and was going through something such as this or is going through something like this recently, just know you're not alone.
You may feel out of the loop now, but don't worry, life suddenly just seems to fall into place.
I read them... writing is in your soul the way you use words to write is so amazing. I'm your biggest fan. Please keep writing :)
ReplyDeleteWell, when I was your age I felt the same way you did- about not feeling as if I "belonged"...and let me assure you- you will feel that way again and again as you go in your life. That's sort of(I think) God's way of telling you it's time for a change in your life.Every time I've felt like that(and I'm at that point in my life AGAIN) I start looking and find somewhere I feel like I DO belong.
ReplyDeleteI don't think we are meant to go along in life without trying different things now and then.....we change as we age. Friends come and go- jobs come and go- homes come and go-......There's an old saying..."The only constant in life is that things are always changing"... and it's so true!!